bendeschaad's thinking again: Cancer: A scary snowman

Cancer: A scary snowman

Dr.G suggestedtrying some speculation and visualization, which, seemed a little too 'new age' but I would make it a shot. I recollect when Joe Cartwright, Little Joe from Bonanza, had cancer and he tested the coffee enemas, which, seemed weird, but, cancer makes you do strange things. How about Steve McQueen.he pursued all over the office trying for a cure.

I thinking of these fellow cancer fighters and wondered if they tried visualization. Anyway, once in bed that even I tried imagining what to see on.pretty darned hard if you are not used to doing this type of thing. Decided on a snowman that would run under the shining sun. O.K. snowman, bright sun, where does the melted snow go? Lets see, I'll take the c run-off melt into a large field of common grass (this was getting weird). What does the snowman's run-offmean? Oh! it means the snowman, which is the cancer, will melt, and the cancer will drain away into the green grassy field. Alright. Got that far but where in the domain does the snowman run-off end up? A rose, yes, one rose, bright red, young and development with little thorns for protection.wait.let me put a pair of big grown-up rose about the small baby rose for added protection (boy, this visualization thingie is hard. The run-off morphs into crystal clear water (don't get all manic.stay focused, Aaron).Now, the sun beats down on the snowman and it is melted.how big is the snowman (it is really big.it is testicular cancer large B cell lymphoma stage 3.that's a big blankety blanking snowman.)
Must have the snowmanthree body body parts, head, round torso, and a big round base. A case? Needs a present and a hat, hat with a brim, colour black. Two black charcoal eyes, sinister looking. Regular carrot nose. Four pieces of charcoal for teeth (I am baking a bar or something). Give the snowman some arms, two arms seem about right, bent knotty looking arms,with3 fingers extending from each arm (I've seen way too many spooky movies). How's he looking (my cancer is a male).missing something.3 black buttons down the front.got it! One damned scary snowman. Gotta melt him.
One bright sun.no?How about another sun, heck, make it three suns.an Illinois sun, a Arkansas sun and, a Bahamian sun, all rotating around this evil cancer snowman. The three suns were known to me and they do each feel differently as they fall down.
The 3 suns rotate over the snowman and run him away, into the green grassy plain and the run-off water becomes crystal clear, and reaches the baby-rose whobecomes beautiful and healthy and lives.
Laterthe 3 suns would turn the trinity.the rose would be beautiful.and I would live.
This was my meditation-visualization and I used it often. Reached the target that I could not rest without appeal and the rose visualization.
To this day I won't look at a stock issue snowman, that's the truth, televisioncommercials at Christmas time are spent with me cover my eyes at the image.
Sounds a little bizarre.guess so.but it works for me.
*From personal journal notes*
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